something more.

The worst thing about me is that I am an antagonistic, analytical worry wart.
I tend to take the smallest of things and blow them up, and eventually, out of proportion.

For this very reason is why I am unable to accept change with the grace that most people do. I try to figure out where I fit in with it, how things are going to turn out, and what's really in between the lines.

And here's how that's applying now.
I was hit some news that week, that seemed to me, to come from out of no where. And the first thing my selfish mind did was start its own series of questions:
"What about..."
"Isn't there another alternative?"
"Are you SURE?"
and the worst one..
"What if?"

And so this morning I was listening to one of my favorite songs when I was stopped dead in my tracks.

My mind went back to an old, but true, cliche:
Worrying is a lot like a rocking chair. It gives you something to do, but gets you no where.

I think the song will speak more for itself than I can ever try to explain, so I'm posting the lyrics here now. And while things aren't nailed in place right now, I know there is always something more than what I'm able to see...

"Something More"
Kristy Starling

Everything's changed, and I want to believe
There must be a reason, there just has to be
Cause my faith is strong, till it all hits home
And it's not enough for me to trust
When it hurts too much

On the days I feel like I've failed you
The days I feel I've been failed
I need to praise You
For I am Yours, I'm Yours

Where is the power, to give what I gave
Give back the strength
Give back the faith I had yesterday
Cause you are my God
You are my Great I Am
And I know I have fallen but..
I have landed in healing hands

On the days I feel like I've failed you
The days I feel I've been failed
I need to praise You
For I am Yours, I'm Yours

And in my fraility, you lead me to something more
So I close my eyes, cause inside my heart
I believe, that I'm not alone
You'll always be there for me

On the days I feel like I've failed you
The days I feel I've been failed
I know that I need to praise You
For I am yours, still yours
Cause I believe you lead me to something more
Something more, something more

just saying "hello" :)

I've typed and erased this first paragraph approximately six times now, because blinking insersion points and lots of white space intimidate me. Makes me wonder what I could possibly say that would draw you to keep reading, to keep coming back for more. I guess this will be an interesting (or devastating) test run.

I decided I wanted to start blogging whenever I realized that I am a very opinionated person. I'm also very observant. Combine the two, throw in a pinch of satire, and I do believe you have the receipe for a half decent blog. So, I guess this whole thing may turn out to be just rambling, carrying on, and nonsense. Never, ever will I mean to offend anybody, so don't take anything I say on here to heart. I'm stating simply how I feel or how I see things (it gets interesting, I promise). So, I guess, thanks for taking time to reading this mess of rambling. Keep checking back for more (or don't. But is it biased for me to say that I would?)

Melissa